im scared and im afraid.
common tests are in a week and i still have so much to cover. i think i had a little too much fun this holiday. and now that only a week's left i start to feel all guilty but yet i dilly-dally a whole lot still. and there's tons of distractions all around. argh it's so frustrating really. i was just thinking about it, im fucking scared i cant get into a good course in uni. i mean my grades would have to be superb since i dont have a substantial cca and cip record. and im so worried about it that's why i think the 3 strands of white hair appeared. it's absolutely impossible for me to get 4 As and my cca sucks and i wont have a good testimonial. god help me.
and im afraid, cos i think im becoming too dependent on you for everything. but it's impossible for me to stop talking to you. i just can't. steffi said im lying to myself and everyone around me. haha. welll this is sooooooo bold and beautiful and days of our lives. but we'll figure this out won't we.
ok im looking forward to charm's birthday dinner at oosh next week. and CTs to be over on the 28th and that very day is andrew's birthday dinner. well wish me luck!